When the Running Struggle is Real

Every relationship has it’s ups and downs. Whether it’s with our significant others, family members, friends, co-workers, pets, or our hobbies, relationships are cyclical in nature. My relationship with running has never been exempt from that. I’ve gone through periods where I had to drag myself out for every run kicking and screaming, and then I’d turn around a week later and have my mojo back.

Right now I’m going through one of those kicking and screaming spells. 

Drinking a Mimosa during the Gate River Run I had a really crappy Gate River Run this year. The first 5 miles weren’t bad – I wasn’t on track to PR, but I also wasn’t doing terribly. Then I slipped, fell, and ate it really hard just past the water stop on Atlantic Blvd and it completely threw me off. I twisted my right ankle, pulled my left calf, and skinned my knees and palms. Awesome. As I stepped to the side to get checked out by the medics, I wasn’t sure if I was about to cry because I was hurt or because I was so embarrassed. After talking to the medics, I had 4 choices:

  • Go to the hospital which was completely unnecessary
  • Wait for the bus to pick me up at the end and Lord knows how long that would’ve been
  • Walk a slightly shorter route back to Everbank Field
  • Finish the race.

I chose to keep going because I’ve never had a “DNF” and at least there was alcohol along the course. Perseverance or flat out stubbornness. I don’t know.

Then between my trip to DC and wanting to pull the covers over my head and ignore the world after Kayne passed away, I did nothing for two weeks. I ran twice last week and just two miles at a time felt worse than a trip to the dentist’s office. I ran tonight and again, it was miserable. Granted, we’re reaching that time of year when the temps are rising, and I hate running in the heat. I keep telling myself it’s all about consistency and once I establish a routine again, it’ll feel better. That’s true… right? I sure hope so.

Its just so difficult and mentally challenging for me when I struggle with running. Over the years, running has brought me so much pride, sanity, and happiness combined with a huge sense of accomplishment. To be at odds with it is just painful.

I have a 5k this weekend, so I’d like to get in at least two more runs between now and then. I’m considering doing a 10-20 day run streak just to force myself back into a routine. I’ve never really done that, so I think it could be a positive change for me and my relationship with running.

 

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Devon Stiles

8 Comments

  1. Remember that running is an escape. It’s been such an awesome thing for you. But I agree. I have a love/hate running relationship and some days it’s easy and awesome and some days it sucks and I wonder why I’m even doing it. Good luck this weekend!!

  2. I think running is a great stress reliever! I am with you though- we went from cool to hot and it is making thing a little miserable but we will adjust! Hang in there Devon!

    • The change in temperature in that two weeks is ABSURD! When I ran at 6 pm last night, it was still almost 90 degrees. It’s only April!

  3. I’ve never gotten the runners high and I always hate running while I’m doing it, but there’s still a small part of me that loves it. My favorite time of day to run is about an hour before sunset. Unless is overcast. I just can’t stand the heat in addition to the sun beating down on me. I love the idea of a daily run challenge. I might have to do that. I have a 5k mud & obstacle run coming up and my training is sucking right now!

    I’m so sorry to hear about your pup. :'(

    Btw, I started following your blog I think a pretty long time ago because I liked all of your local restaurant reviews, but I haven’t visited in awhile and I really like the more personal direction your blog has taken. I’ll for sure be stopping by more often. **Hopefully that’s not too creepy to say. lol. I’m not a weirdo, I promise. 🙂

    Katie @ Freckled Latte

    • Thank you so much for all the kind words, Katie! I was concerned some people wouldn’t be happy that I was talking less about food (cause let’s be honest – it’s not like I’d stop talking about food completely), but I’m glad to hear that you’re enjoying it. And no, I don’t think you’re a weirdo or creepy for saying that!

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